...It Has Shaken My Faith...

I don’t even know where to start today. I am completely discontent. All my thoughts are in disarray and I can’t seem to stop thinking. I HATE that. I am totally over analyzing everything, running things through my mind over and over. Questioning, doubting, believing, hurting…the list goes on and on. I’ve always tried to see the good in people, I always try to be positive about things and keep my head up. But this…it has shaken my faith…I am SO confused. I am hoping that my tried and true method of writing helps me gain a new clarity on this situation, or at least just give me peace. I can’t move on until I understand. It doesn’t matter if I agree with it or not, as long as I understand that’s all that matters to me. That’s all I have to say about this situation right now. Moving on…

Since it’s been a few weeks since I wrote last, here’s a quick recap. The family reunion was fun. After it was over we had a bunch of TB’s family come to the house to continue the celebrations. Unfortunately, it was a Sunday night and half of us were TRASHED. In fact, I have pictures on my phone of some of us wrestling in the back yard. Monday wasn’t a good day for any of us.

I don’t remember much of what happened the week before 4th of July. All of my weeks and days blur together now because TB and I have too much fun together. 4th of July weekend was great. Got TRASHED Thursday night, watched the sun come up, slept most of Friday. Partied 4th of July and then went boating on Sunday. I drank a little too much on Sunday and passed out when we got home about 5 PM. I got up around 930 and then went back to bed at 10 PM.

This week at work is HECTIC. I’m badging for the SSA employees and setting up their security system for them. The furniture starts coming in today and employees will be moved in and working on Monday. All in all, it’s been a SUPER hectic project with an ALMOST impossible timeline. But, we’ve been making it work, I will still be around for a while finishing up paperwork. Ugh, must get back to work. Too much to do…plus, I have to keep myself busy so as not to continue to over think this situation and stress about it more. It’s time to put it in a bubble and blow it away.

“That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Corinthians 12:10

Quote of the Day: “You must look INTO other people, as well as AT them.”

Well, I Drank Mine AND Hers...

So tired. Didn’t want to get out of bed today. Totally snoozed my alarm for half an hour and then was booking to get out the door on time. :O Ugh…but at least it’s Friday. When I get home today I am totally taking a nap. It’s supposed to be really nice tomorrow and I want to be able to enjoy it! I have no idea what I’m doing yet, but as long as I’m outside, I’ll be happy.

Yesterday was fairly uneventful. Worked, then went and got my nails done and went and picked up another load from the house. I got my last dresser. I think I can get the rest of the stuff in 2 or 3 loads now. Yay! I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. As previously stated, I.HATE.MOVING. I think most people do. The only part about moving that I like is that I tend to get rid of a lot of stuff I don’t need, and considering I’ve moved twice in the past 2 years, I have most definitely gotten rid of a bunch of crap that I don’t need to cart around from place to place.

So, I got to the new house and unloaded and then took a nice, cold shower as I was sweating from moving stuff inside. Then I lazily got ready, blow dried and flat ironed my hair and did my makeup. TB was out w/ some co workers and came home and I got dressed and we headed to 84 for a quick drink…or two. Well, I drank mine AND hers since she had been drinking since she got off work. We had a quick drink and then headed home. I think I was in bed by 11, I’m just not used to 5 days in a row of getting up early anymore. THANK GOD I get off at 2 PM every day. Makes it a little easier on me.

So, after my nap today I have no idea what’s going on. I know TB has a family reunion in Stevenson, WA on Sunday and the weather’s going to be nice. I may tag along as it will be a nice day for a drive through the gorge. Other than that, I really don’t have any plans. Think we may take it easy this weekend as I have re-joined the work force for the time being. However, I know I say that and things will end up getting crazy like they always do. Yee haw.

Hope you all have a wicked weekend!

Quote of the Day: “Reality is an illusion created by lack of alcohol.”

Babes, Boats, Bikes, Beer, Boobs…

Ugh, I am NOT used to this getting up at 515 AM shit anymore. I am TIRED. I didn’t sleep well last night as I’m not used to having a male body in my bed. I totally wanted to cuddle, he likes it when I fall asleep on his shoulder w/ my leg over his torso, but it was too hot. I wanted to get up and turn the AC up and the damn LCD thermostat wasn’t working. Ugh, I woke up this morning stuck to him and soaked in sweat. Icky. But at the same time, I miss having someone in my bed with me. J

Yesterday after work I did some more room ish, I am LOVING the way it’s turning out. I am done painting now and just have a few pics left to hang. Today after work I’m gonna make a trip to the old house and get my last dresser and try to get the remainder of my clothes and shoes. Ugh. I.EFFING.HATE.MOVING! But, it’s almost done now. Yay!

So, Thursday. After I get back to the new house and pack all of my crap inside I’m gonna take a shower and then take a nap…SO.TIRED.

The weather this weekend is supposed to be amazing, I hope I can get out on a boat or a bike. A ha ha, I love this time of year. All of the B’s are out! Babes, Boats, Bikes, Beer, Boobs…yeah baby. Gotta love summer time! Anyway, I haven’t talked to TB about what’s going on this weekend but I’m sure I will do some heavy drinking as per usual. Ugh, I gotta go back to drinking beer and shots and eliminate the mixer that is giving me these 24 hour hangovers. Fuck, I’m just not 21 anymore and can’t bounce back from the hangover like I used to. Blah, blah, blah, blah.

I SO wanna crawl under my desk right now and take a little nap…5 hours left, then I hafta pack stuff and go get my nails done. Yay, Thursday!

Quote of the Day: “Life doesn't require that we be the best, only that we try our best.”