16 May 2012

...When We Laugh or Cry, We Do It As One...

AC - 8.1.2008
Today's blog post is going to be short and sweet because I spent the majority of the night turning myself back into a blonde and I am tired and ready for bed.  However, I feel the need to keep the positive vibes going in my blog posts.  This post is going to be a complete blast from the past with pics of me and my TB because I cannot express with words how much I miss her right now. I am super excited to get to spend the night with her on Friday. I feel the need to try and put into words how I feel about her. TB, here is your warning...get a tissue! :) I tried once to articulate how I feel about her, and this was the outcome, written just over three years ago on March 11th, 2009:

What’s Really Important

These last few years have been exponential for me as far as emotional and spiritual growth. So much so, that I want to share some things that have been on my mind lately. Things that five years ago never even really even crossed my mind because I was too busy to slow down and realize that every day that I wake up is another gift at this awful, beautiful life.

Over the past few years I have realized that people and the relationships you maintain with them are the most important part of life. If you take away the people you love all that is left are material things. Things that don’t fulfill me in any way emotionally as they are things that can always be replaced. My friends and family however, can never be replaced. These relationships, I have come to learn, are worth every second of time and effort that I put into them. Not only that, but I am rewarded many times over for the time I do spend working on them.
Bar 84 - 10.17.08
It’s the simple things in life that never cease to amaze me, those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular. The moments that I look back on and all I feel is warmth, love and happiness. There is one person that has been a very big part of me for a very long time. Someone I trust my life with. I share everything with her, without any fear or doubt that she may judge or criticize because maybe she doesn’t agree with me. Someone who loves me unconditionally no matter how stubborn I might be and she isn’t afraid to tell me so. Someone who walks the path of life with me and holds my hand rather than running ahead and leaving me behind. Someone who always has her umbrella ready just in case a storm arrives on my horizon. Someone who builds me up not breaks me down. I was with this friend last night, who means more to me than I can even express with words. We are both struggling with emotional conflict right now and are there for each other, no matter what that means.

Tiger Bar - 9.5.2009
Last night we spent some much needed time together. Her just being there soothed a part of me that has been crying silently for help. A part of me that I try my hardest to hide from the outside world. The part that just HURTS and there isn’t anything you can do about it except hope and pray that time will heal your wounds. Which I have learned, time cannot do. “Love, not time heals all wounds.” Just because I have a smile on the outside, doesn’t mean my heart isn’t carrying a frown. I didn’t even have to say anything to her; she can look at me and know what is troubling me, she sees right into me, she always has. Which brings me to one of my favorite sayings: “Everyone HEARS what you say. Friends LISTEN to what you say. Best friends listen to what you DON’T say.” We have that bond, an unspoken language, if you will. There are times that we don’t even need to speak. Just being there and knowing that no matter what happens on this earth, we will still have each other. That’s enough for us. "Sometimes the best kind of friend is one who you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word and then walk away feeling as if it was the best conversation you’ve ever had." She and I have that connection with each other, which is something that never ceases to amaze me. She is one of the few people on this earth that I know I can count on, unconditionally to be there for me when I need her and it is reciprocated from me to her.

St. Paul Rodeo - July 3, 2010
This woman fulfills me in ways I never could have imagined. She is my angel, my sister, my soul mate. She is my hope as well as my dreams. She is everything that I am not, nor could I ever be. Where she ends, I begin. We are complete opposites, yet one in the same. We are one soul dwelling in two bodies. What she is afraid to say out loud, I scream from the rooftops. What I fear, she faces. When she falls, I pick her up. When I crawl, she drags me back up to my feet. What I feel, she senses. Yet when we laugh or cry, we do it as one.

T, I love you more than I can describe with words. You aren’t just my friend, you are my angel, my sister, my love, my life, my air…and you always will be.

Twilight Room - 5.14.2010

Quote of the Day: A best friend is a sister that destiny forgot to give you.

Repeated Random GOOD Life Lesson # 129 (because it's about my TB): You will have one of the best times of your life with your best friend on a random Tuesday night drinking wine, talking, laughing, crying and drunk facebooking. It will remind you for days, of one of your many favorite quotes: “I always knew we’d look back on our tears and laugh, but I never thought we’d look back on our laughter and cry.”

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